It's unfair ay? ;)

Exam yang just around the corner memang menuntutku untuk study lebih sikit dari biasa ;) And alhamdulillah banyak yang Allah bantu !

Untuk lebih alertkan lagi, aku siap buat wallpaper laptop lagi jadual exam ni sejak sebulan lepas. >____<

So Allah izin, aku study group bersama dengan kawan aku di library yang aku panggil dia M. She's mix kiwi + thailand, and i must say she's quite beautiful :)

Dan nak dijadikan cerita lepas kami habis study group, kami sembang sembang kosong. Dan camnilah lebih kurang ceritenyeeee :

Me: Is your friend (indonesian girl) that married to the Hong Kong guy a muslim?

M  : I don't think so because she doesn't wear hijab like you do..

Me: Ooo really? Oh yes, she must be not a muslim cuz she's married to that guy.

M : Hey, how come you can say that? Are you saying that muslims couldn't marry to other guys from other religions? That's unfair !

-------The conversation's getting hotter ay? --------------------------

Me: *Smiling* How come you can live with someone that is totally different with you, like believing different God and have different faith?

M : But still we can cope with that though... It's unfair because you can't be with the one you love, dont you?

Me: Heheehe. It's funny when you said it is unfair. Because for me, I love my God more, and I know for sure He will never ever leave me.. Well, people always leave us, but God never. 

M : Hurmmmm, you love your God and for sure your God must love you back. Then how come He lets you bear with this? It's still unfair for you thoughhh..

Me: Well then, if my God loves me, of course He will make ways for me. Sometimes He wants to test our true love towards Him. Do you really love Me, or is it just fake devotion?

M : Yeahhhhh. True true. *Raising white flag* But still, how if it really happens to you in the future? Let say, if u fall for an english guy, he's kind, honest n etc etc but he is non muslim? 

Me: *Erkk? This is totally out of no where, and out of question though, M. But then, i just keep smiling.*  Well, maybe i might feel sad or even i maybe really cry (Ouch, really???). But i am confident that my God, Allah will give better things to me. :) He will make ways for me insha Allah :)
M : Ooo,  I'm sorry, it's not that i'm saying your God is not good, it is just that i don't really know your religion. 

Me: Heeeee, no worries M, yeah i know that. It's small matter. You'll know Islam better as time goes by :)

--------------------End of conversation-------------------------------

Well, that's how it ends. 

Sebenarnya perbualan tu membuatkan saya menggigil hati ini. Sebab berkali kali pertanyaanNya berdesing di telinga ni:

Patutkah manusia menyangka bahawa mereka akan dibiarkan dengan hanya berkata: "Kami beriman", sedang mereka tidak diuji (dengan sesuatu cubaan)? (29:2)

Adesss, sangat takut. Ayat killer ni. >__< 

Hati tertanya tanya, bagaimana dengan level iman sekarang ni? Kata tadi *I love my God more.. Well is it TRUE?! * Haishhhhh.. Takut + meremang bulu roma... Adakah ianya cinta + keimanan yang benar atau hanya ilusi yang indah khabar dari rupa? 

Dan lagi takut kalau kita cakap kita betul betul beriman, tapi in fact, kita hanyalah membusung iman yang mandul. Ayaksss :(

Aku teringat, kata kata seorang murabbiku, 'Contohilah ihsan nabi Yusuf, yang berusaha sekeras mungkin untuk taat, patuh padaNya dikala ujian berat menimpa.'

Ya, Yusuf hampir tergoda dengan kejelitaan Zulaikha, dan sangat berusaha untuk mengelak dari terjebak ke lembah murkaNya, dan kerana sangat kuatnya ihsan Nabi Yusuf, maka Allah menolongnya :)

Dan kata sisterku, kita mungkin sudah berusaha keras untuk tidak jatuh ke dalam lubang jahiliyah yang sama, namun kadang kadang kita mungkin tak mampu untuk elak dari jatuh sekali lagi, maka janganlah putus asa dari rahmatNya ! Berusaha lagi ! Berusaha lagi , dan berusaha lagi ! Insha Allah, segala usaha kita dinilaiNya, dan remember, Jagalah Allah, nescaya Allah menjagamu ! :)

Insha Allah, Allah takkan biarkan kita di lembah jahiliyah yang sama jika kita berusaha bersungguh sungguh untuk meninggalkannya :)

Ingat tau ! Ni pesanan khas untuk saya :) Oh ye, moga bermanfaat untuk kamu jugak ! >___<

Oh ye 1 more, jangan lupa doakan saya eh. Thank u and jazakillah khair ! :)

Salam!